Well it took the whole morning to reassure my ex-wife but finally I was given the go-ahead to collect them and managed to make it in time. The day's been a rollercoaster - I'm hoping to relax now (ah chocolate!).

I feel betrayed by Alan - he says he was just advising them and wouldn't betray me.

Had a lot of support from AA friends and my sponsor and thank God I've made it through a very trying day.